Sunday, February 13, 2011

i haven't posted anything in a while because i haven't been keeping up with my study. what's posted isn't quite caught up to where i am, but it's not too far behind. school, work, relationships, and everything else under the sun has been getting in the way of my time with God. what was once my sabbath has now become a study day, mainly because i either ran out of time during the week, or i procrastinated. 

i am asking that you pray for me as i continue through this journey. i am hoping that i wont stay in this place for too long, but school has only just begun. 

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

don't read this if you want to stay in control of your life.

this passage is too good not to post. 

job 38
1 then the LORD spoke to job out of the storm. He said:
 2 “who is this that obscures my plans
   with words without knowledge?
3 brace yourself like a man;
   I will question you,
   and you shall answer me.
 4 “where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?
   tell me, if you understand.
5 who marked off its dimensions? surely you know!
   who stretched a measuring line across it?

6 on what were its footings set,
   or who laid its cornerstone—
7 while the morning stars sang together
   and all the angels shouted for joy?
 8 “who shut up the sea behind doors
   when it burst forth from the womb,
9 when I made the clouds its garment
   and wrapped it in thick darkness,
10 when I fixed limits for it
   and set its doors and bars in place,
11 when I said, ‘this far you may come and no farther;
   here is where your proud waves halt’?
 12 “have you ever given orders to the morning,
   or shown the dawn its place,

13 that it might take the earth by the edges
   and shake the wicked out of it?
14 the earth takes shape like clay under a seal;
   its features stand out like those of a garment.
15 the wicked are denied their light,
   and their upraised arm is broken.
 16 “have you journeyed to the springs of the sea
   or walked in the recesses of the deep?
17 have the gates of death been shown to you?
   have you seen the gates of the deepest darkness?
18 have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth?
   tell me, if you know all this.
 19 “what is the way to the abode of light?
   and where does darkness reside?
20 can you take them to their places?
   do you know the paths to their dwellings?
21 surely you know, for you were already born!
   you have lived so many years!
 22 “have you entered the storehouses of the snow
   or seen the storehouses of the hail,
23 which I reserve for times of trouble,
   for days of war and battle?
24 what is the way to the place where the lightning is dispersed,
   or the place where the east winds are scattered over the earth?
25 who cuts a channel for the torrents of rain,
   and a path for the thunderstorm,
26 to water a land where no one lives,
   an uninhabited desert,
27 to satisfy a desolate wasteland
   and make it sprout with grass?

28 does the rain have a father?
   who fathers the drops of dew?
29 from whose womb comes the ice?
   who gives birth to the frost from the heavens
30 when the waters become hard as stone,
   when the surface of the deep is frozen?
 31 “can you bind the chains of the pleiades?
   can you loosen orion’s belt?
32 can you bring forth the constellations in their seasons

   or lead out the bear with its cubs?
33 do you know the laws of the heavens?
   can you set up God’s dominion over the earth?
 34 “can you raise your voice to the clouds
   and cover yourself with a flood of water?
35 do you send the lightning bolts on their way?
   do they report to you, ‘here we are’?
36 who gives the ibis wisdom

   or gives the rooster understanding?

37 who has the wisdom to count the clouds?
   who can tip over the water jars of the heavens
38 when the dust becomes hard
   and the clods of earth stick together?
 39 “do you hunt the prey for the lioness
   and satisfy the hunger of the lions
40 when they crouch in their dens
   or lie in wait in a thicket?
41 who provides food for the raven
   when its young cry out to God
   and wander about for lack of food? 

job 39
1 “do you know when the mountain goats give birth?
   do you watch when the doe bears her fawn?

2 do you count the months till they bear?
   do you know the time they give birth?
3 they crouch down and bring forth their young;
   their labor pains are ended.
4 their young thrive and grow strong in the wilds;
   they leave and do not return.
 5 “who let the wild donkey go free?
   who untied its ropes?

6 I gave it the wasteland as its home,
   the salt flats as its habitat.
7 it laughs at the commotion in the town;
   it does not hear a driver’s shout.
8 it ranges the hills for its pasture
   and searches for any green thing.
 9 “will the wild ox consent to serve you?
   will it stay by your manger at night?
10 can you hold it to the furrow with a harness?
   will it till the valleys behind you?
11 will you rely on it for its great strength?
   will you leave your heavy work to it?
12 can you trust it to haul in your grain
   and bring it to your threshing floor?
 13 “the wings of the ostrich flap joyfully,
   though they cannot compare
   with the wings and feathers of the stork.
14 she lays her eggs on the ground
   and lets them warm in the sand,
15 unmindful that a foot may crush them,
   that some wild animal may trample them.
16 she treats her young harshly, as if they were not hers;
   she cares not that her labor was in vain,
17 for God did not endow her with wisdom
   or give her a share of good sense.
18 yet when she spreads her feathers to run,
   she laughs at horse and rider.
 19 “do you give the horse its strength
   or clothe its neck with a flowing mane?
20 do you make it leap like a locust,
   striking terror with its proud snorting?
21 it paws fiercely, rejoicing in its strength,
   and charges into the fray.
22 it laughs at fear, afraid of nothing;
   it does not shy away from the sword.
23 the quiver rattles against its side,
   along with the flashing spear and lance.
24 in frenzied excitement it eats up the ground;
   it cannot stand still when the trumpet sounds.
25 at the blast of the trumpet it snorts, ‘aha!’
   it catches the scent of battle from afar,
   the shout of commanders and the battle cry.
 26 “does the hawk take flight by your wisdom
   and spread its wings toward the south?
27 does the eagle soar at your command
   and build its nest on high?

28 it dwells on a cliff and stays there at night;
   a rocky crag is its stronghold.
29 from there it looks for food;
   its eyes detect it from afar.
30 its young ones feast on blood,
   and where the slain are, there it is.” 


job 40:8-14
 8 “Would you discredit my justice?
   Would you condemn me to justify yourself?
9 Do you have an arm like God’s,
   and can your voice thunder like his?

10 Then adorn yourself with glory and splendor,
   and clothe yourself in honor and majesty.
11 Unleash the fury of your wrath,
   look at all who are proud and bring them low,
12 look at all who are proud and humble them,
   crush the wicked where they stand.
13 Bury them all in the dust together;
   shroud their faces in the grave.
14 Then I myself will admit to you
   that your own right hand can save you.

He is... All-Powerful, part 2

Almighty = El Shaddai (all-sufficient)

genesis 17:1-2 "When abram was ninety-nine years old, the LORD appeared to him and said, “I am God Almighty; walk before me faithfully and be blameless. then I will make my covenant between me and you and will greatly increase your numbers.”

God has the power to make promises about my life and is able to keep them. He can determine my future.

genesis 28:3; 48:3; 49:25
God continues to make this promises throughout the generations.

ruth 1:20-21
naomi did not want to be called by her name, but rather by a name that means bitter because the Lord had made her life bitter. God is Almighty...he has the power to change our lives.

and then comes job...

Job 5:17
"He wounds, but he also binds up; 
he injures, but his hands also heal.
from six calamities he will rescue you;
in seven no harm will befall you.
in famine he will ransom you from death.
and in battle from stroke of sword.
you'll be protected from lash of the tongue,
and need not fear when destruction comes.
you'll laugh at destruction and famine,
and need not fear the beasts of the earth."

Almighty = All Powerful = omnipotent!
this means He has the power to do all these things. it's more than just the big picture of our future that he cares about and controls. he has the power to control/dictate even the most finite details of our lives. He can bring pain and take it away because HE is EL SHADDAI!
He gives and takes away, but blessed be his name!

job 8:3-7
God gave sinners over to the penalty of their sin, but because He's almighty, he has the power to forgive and make new. "your beginnings seem so humble, so prosperous will your future be."

job 11:6-8
"know this: God has even forgotten some of your sin. can you fathom the mysteries of God? can you probe the limits of the Almighty? they are higher than the heavens - what can you do? they are deeper than the depths of the grave - what can you know? their measure is longer than the earth and wider than the sea."

- i am nothing and can do nothing compared to the Almighty God. God is bigger than big. His power extends past the heavens. even the heavens are unimaginable. this power far exceeds that. from an earthly perspective, his power goes wider than the sea. is you think about it, the oceans run into each other to create a massive body of water. there is no beginning or end. that is the power of God!

job 22:21-23, 26
"submit to God and be at peace with Him; in this way prosperity will come to you. accept instruction from his mouth and lay up his words in your heart. if you returned to the Almighty, you will be restored...surely you will find delight in the Almighty and will lift up your face to God."

- remove the treasures of the earth from your life, and God will become those treasures for you

job 34:14-15
"if it were his intention and he withdrew his spirit and breath, all mankind would perish together and man would return to the dust."

God is keeping us alive. 
***job 38-39, 40:9-14***
God is pointing out all the things he is capable of, telling job that if he is able to accomplish these things then God will back off and "admit to you that your own right hand can save you." (40:14)

 

Friday, January 28, 2011

He is... All-Powerful, part 1


key verse: "the magicians said to pharaoh, 'this is the finger of God.' but pharaoh’s heart was hard and he would not listen, just as the LORD had said." Exodus 8:19

Exodus 8-9
God is sending the plagues on the egyptians. the pharoah's magicians were able to duplicate the first two (blood and frogs), but when dust -> gnats, they recognized that it was the Lord at work. pharoah didn't believe this, so the plagues continued. 
- God is far greater than anyone and anything in this universe. He will do whatever it takes to set me free (he already has through Jesus) and he will also do whatever it takes to wake me up. 
- i have to  trust in God's power to overcome evil.
- "open your eyes to see the finger of God at work in your life. recognize his power. He works miracles, he fights your hardheartedness, he breaks your addiction to having everything your own way. He is all-powerful, and he may be lovingly pointing his finger at you." [true.identity bible]
- my identity is found in Christ. he gives me the power to overcome evil.

my prayer is that God would open my eyes to his presence in my life, that he would show me that he is in control. i am also praying that when he does reveal this to me, that i would believe it with everything in me. i can see it all i want, but it doesn't matter if i don't believe, grasp, and hang on to it.

my study of this character isn't over yet. after grasping the basics of his power, i did a search on "almighty" and found scriptures from genesis to revelation that testify to his power. those will come soon...

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

He is...Creator

"in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth." genesis 1:1

"God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. and there was evening, and there was morning—the sixth day."  genesis 1:31

the Creator of the universe cares about me...
"indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows." luke 12:7
i am important to God. i am not just one person who is lost in the crowd of 6 billion on the earth. God loves me because he created me and he knows every little thing about me. i am important to him, just as important as anyone else. 

"it is a prime example of God's handiwork, and only its Creator can threaten it." 
job 40:19
the Creator is above all. even the strongest being can be taken out by its master and creator. admitting that God is my creator is admitting that:
1. apart from Him i am and can do nothing
2. he has the power to do as he wishes with my life. i am not in control, he is.

"haven't you heard? haven't you understood? the LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth. he never grows weak or weary. no one can measure the depths of his understanding." isaiah 40:28 
God never gets tired, and he can even bring rest to others. He created rest. i grow tired because i am not the Creator, but because i know the Creator, i can have rest.

"what sorrows await those who argue with their Creator" isaiah 45:9
don't question Him.

"the LORD will surely comfort zion
   and will look with compassion on all her ruins;
he will make her deserts like eden,
   her wastelands like the garden of the LORD. 
joy and gladness will be found in her,
   thanksgiving and the sound of singing."
isaiah 51:3
the Creator is in control. don't fear.

"they traded the truth about God for a lie. so they worshiped and served the things God created instead of the Creator himself, who is worthy of eternal praise! Amen." 
romans 1:25  
spend less time focusing on the things God created and more time on the Creator! nothing is more important than the Creator himself!

the journey

here's the deal...

i have been a "Christian" for 13 years now, but have fought unbelief almost my entire life. i grew up in church and as a "good christian girl," but i just never got it. about 2 years ago, i got it. i understood what the heck it meant to be a follower of Christ. so that should solve doubts, right? wrong. 2009 was my year for the Lord. i grew and grew. in 2010, i spent the first 6 months doubting my salvation, doubting God's existence, doubting life, doubting purpose, you name it and i probably doubted it. i don't know what happened, but i was content for a while. i knew i had to be a christian because i was following the leading of something inside of me, which of course was the Holy Spirit. Then came 2011. Passion. on the second day of passion, God opened my eyes to some incredible things. He showed me that my life was not balancing out with the gospels and who i was in him. then he showed me just how precious i was to Him and how much He loved and adored me. seems like that would be enough to keep me going, right? wrong. just the next day i began doubting again. i lost that passion. that experience led to somewhat of a down-spiral of thinking that i was being brainwashed. that was my new theory. i decided that because i had grown up in church, i was never able to actually believe anything because it was just fed directly to me. i didn't need to believe. i knew the act i needed to play, and i played it well. everything i ever knew was only that because it's all i was exposed to. i had been brainwashed. i researched tons of things on brainwashed Christians and found plenty of atheists who were on board with my assumptions. this searching led me to a book which has the potential to help me become who i want to be. (this is not the point of the blog though).

but this is the point...i am now doing a study on who He is. there is a good chance that i have a misconception of who He is, and i am determined to get it right. i can see myself as a strong woman, full of the Holy Spirit, and just on fire for him every day. that won't happen until i know who He is. so that is my goal. over the next few weeks, months, years (who knows), i will be going through a study on who He is. i will be using the study that was created by the publishers of the true.identity bible, but will also be using many scriptures containing the character which i am studying.

i will most likely study a new attribute/characteristic each week, but in some cases i may spend longer if i need more time to absorb or understand what it means.
i will not be posting everyday. i will at least give the "He is" for the week and a few scriptures to accompany it. if God opens my eyes to something incredible, i will share it. along the way i may also include my opinions or questions about things. 

i am using this blog for accountability, but also as a means to keep my thoughts organized. though i am journaling everything, it is mixed in with many other thoughts, studies, prayers, etc. this blog will be my way to keep it together, and will really just be a quick summary of everything. 

if you're reading this, all i ask is that you pray for me. this has been a tiresome season of doubt, not only for myself, but also for those who i am closest to. there are some pretty incredible people who have stuck it out with me and who have pushed me to overcome this doubt. so, for their sanity and for my own, i want this doubt to end and for truth, wisdom, and a strong faith to come quickly. 

specific things you can be in prayer for: 
- that i will be open to whatever God shows me
- that the Holy Spirit would keep everything He shows me at the forefront of my mind
- that when doubt arises, I will keep pushing through and fighting to believe
- that i would start to turn to God with every doubt, worry, fear, question, etc rather than to people
- that i will be confident in God's power to shape me into the woman i can be in Him
- that i will not let school work and other responsibilities get in the way of this journey (i tend to be very school and work-oriented, so it is easy for my relationship with God to be pushed to the back burner) 

that's about it.